before the year ends..

WHOAAAA. As per my tradition, it's again time for me to sit back, relax, and look back on the year that (in hours time) was. :)

* I had a very intense and serious relationship which lasted for three months only. I broke up with him for some reason, and I regretted doing so after some time. Twas too late, I felt super bad but I learned so/too much from the experience. I've learned that giving up may not always be the solution because people will not always be ready for you anymore if you decide to come back.

* I had another relationship, which was almost the best and most... basta! parang "ETO NA TALAGA!" but then I decided to leave him, for some reason, again. It was a bad move, yes.. but I guess he's forgiven me already, and I've forgiven myself too. I've learned (from my mom) that, I'm not in that 'trial and error' stage anymore where it's kind of normal to be experimenting and playing and stuff. She told me that I'm now in that stage where I need to be with someone whom I can get serious with. She's roight. :)

* I lost contol of my life, and found myself back with mom again where I found peace and happiness and direction (somehow). I tried working in a "call cen-er", and I learned the value of money. Damn! was it hard to be up till the wee hours talking to bobonics and explaining to them the hows and whys. Sobrang nakakalokaaa. It was a good experience though, having met a lot of different people. As in! from all walks of life. :) I've learned to not judge people as to where they come from and what kind of lifestyle they have. I've learned that everything happens for a reason, and I must be open to the fact that not everyone will have the same views as mine. So I must respect that. ;D

* I got sick, as in very sick. I was hospitalized for about three weeks c/o my weak immune system. I had to quit working, because my lola told me to as in I had no choice but to follow and I felt the need to quit also, so I went back to South and enrolled again for the second semester. I shifted to Entrepreneurship and transferred to Southville. And I think I'm okay now. :) What I've learned? We learn good life lessons from not-so-good experiences. oyea.

* I gained new friends! of course, cos I've a new school. And I love them, they are so fun to be with and I love spending time with them. Although most of them are boys, I stil enjoy their company although they often talk and do DOTA. amp? haha! :)) 

* Twilight was out. Yea, madaming posers naglipana. I am proud to say that I haven't even heard of it until it was in the silver screen. I was excited to watch cos I loved the trailer plus it was Paramore who covered the OST so yeah, loved it..

..until it became so overrated which was ugh, nevermind. ;P

* I met someone, who happens to be my boyfriend right now, who happens to own a very looong name, and a very huge space in my heart. ayii. ;)

* I drunk a lot of booze this year, I will try not to drink too much next year. Friends, please, cooperate! Hahaha. :))

* This has been my most emotional year, so far. I intend for it to stay that way. :D

* I have a new baby sister! whose name (Bien Mikhaila Yson) was my idea. We shall call her Kyle, for short. Ah huh, ah huh. :)

Soooooo.. there. I know I missed something, I'll go edit when it crosses my mind. ciao! t

bad vibes.

Super bv, after hearing mass (which we weren't able to start pffft) we had dinner at Racks, tapos I don't know how but nawala bigla yung promo card ko sa SB. Eh I'm 3 stickers away na lang from getting the planner! hmft! bv bv bv! Back to zero nanaman ako. Nakakainis talagaaaa.


Anyway, no classes today. yey! I need to rest eh, and do some stuff. today is pasarap day for me, I need to relax lang. I badly need it. Pero I wish I could go out and be with someone, eh di pwede cos papa will visit us today which is bihira so yun, it's something we shouldn't be misssing.

Uhm, ayun. Again, my heart's conflicted. I don't know what to do anymore, I am so scared. Nawawalan nako ng gana mag boyfriend tuloy. EWAN. So people quit asking me why I don't have one, it's not like it's a disease or something. We don't hafta rush it naman. Diba diba.


So there, Christmas is coming. I want to do something not for myself. I want to help some people. Hmm. So magtitipid na talaga ko so I could share. I don't know, if I fall short I'd rather give something to the needy kasi okay naman family ko eh, lovelove na lang. Hehe! Excited nako. :)) Ayan, good vibes na. ;D t

first day, haay.

So, after about 8 months of hiatus, I am a student again. :)







..and of all the consequences of having such long break, what I loathe the most is that my feet doesn't seem to recognize school shoes anymore. myfeethurt :(

red black blue.

"Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totoong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

-Bob Ong

I KNOWWW. ;)

Anyway, the SB 2009 Planner is out. Eto nanaman ako. Haha! 16 stickers na lang this time, unlike last year, it was 24 yata. Tss. It looks a lot simpler now, love it cos may lines and although the '08's got lines too, sirain naman. Yung sa sides.. hmf! I'll get a hold of the red one before the month ends, dapat!. :)) t

Yuck.

I woke up at around 9am, I found my bestfriend in our living room. We talked a little then we went to Starbucks to have coffee kasi naglilihi ako sa kape kanina although natatae ako. Hahaha! ;D Laughtrip lang. Mukha nanaman kami siraulo. Then went to their house to freshen up, I finally achieved my back to school look! Hehe :) I know which shade of blush and lipstick to use na. Yiii. Anyways, SM kami after, watched My Only U. Ang cornyyy. Di siya nakakatawa, nakakaiyak! Nagbrownout pa, bulok na SM. Pfft. All of that happened nang di pa ako naliligo. Kadirdir. Wala naman kasi ko balak umalis. t

shitty.

I smell something fishy with my friends, may namumuong tension.. nyahahaha! ;D

I'm just exhausted. I just had 3 hours of sleep last night, had my first meal at 5pm today, I went from Southville to Beda to get my clearance which was nakakabadtrip cos peperahan pa ko nung librarian. argh! He told me that I still have to pay 500 cos of the book that I've lost DAW. Hello!? I was cleared na nga 2nd semester last SY so how could it be that I still have accountabilities diba? Annnddd, that's the ONLY book that I've borrowed for the whol;e year and syempre, fresh pa sa utak ko yung fine na binayaran ko for that overdue book. tss. Bulok na sistema. Dami pa sinabi, magssign din naman pala. bv.

Isa pa tong nakakabadtrip, ang schedule ko. super looooong breaks. 

I have 9:30-12:30 and 9:30-2:00 breaks. Katamad yon. t

ang sarap dito.

Minsan masarap lang talaga maglakad-lakad sa bahay na naka undies lang at polo (yung parang sa movies, palaging suot ng babae after sex), habang nagkakape at nag iisip isip.

Yeeaaahhhh.

ja-ja-jaded.

After some years I got to watch Aerosmith's Jaded video again. I used to love the song but I hated the vid cos I found it a bit creepy. Hehe! Ngayon ko lang talaga siya naappreciate, prolly cos of all the nasty hiphop videos coming out, parang ows? pwede pa lang ganun?

Anyways, about T.I, hehehe! Kinikilig ako. :)) I din't like him talaga, I wasn't a fan. But after having watched The Tyra Banks Show, I was converted. :) Yes, he's got his fair share of being pasaway (not to mention good looks and a perfect set of teeth!) and all and he'll be serving a year behind bars but he's a really good man. I liked what he said about God, that "He wouldn't get you into, something you can't get through." It's just so true and I din't expect it to be mouthed by a rap star, ya know. :D

Speaking of TBS, I'm beginning to dislike it in a way. Uhh, parang the issues that they're tackling are getting more and more exaggerated. I mean, it's good that they're trying to create an image that their show has a heart but yeah, OA na at times. I'm liking Chelsea Lately more, lately. At least, she's not trying to make an effort to look smart and witty, cos she naturally is already. Her show's really entertaining especially with the guest comedians and Handler's sidekick, Chuy. :)


Well I think that's enough evidence already that I've been killing time by watching TV.
It's just so boring lately, don'tyathink? t

yung dating ako baga.

Today, I prayed. It has been my most sincere prayer ever.





I know I am so not the same person now, I have changed a lot. How could it be that I'm loving what I am currently doing yet loathing what I am becoming. It suddenly hit me that, I have turned to this version of me which I do not like since I've stopped praying. Yes, I used to pray a lot. I used to always talk to Him and He used to be the first to know if anything's been bothering me. How could I turn into such evil. I used to make wise decisions. I used to be someone with a kind heart, one with a soul. I used to like being friends with anyone, minus the judgment.

Now I'm just some girl with no substance. 19 years and look at what I've become.. rude, selfish. I've turned into someone who's not worth looking up to by my little siblings, and that scares me.. a lot.

I know I still have it in me. I've always had good intentions, but something's really pulling me back. I just don't know what it is. But I know, soon, I will be back. t

labinglima.

Alam ko, ako ang may kasalanan. Pero wag mo naman ako parusahan. Magtitino nako, swear. :'(

hard or soft?

You say yes, they'll take advantage of you. You say no, they'll get intimidated and before you know it, they're gone.

Sometimes it's just hard to decide whether or not you'd submit yourself to vulnerability.

When it comes to these issues, I always find myself juggling on the yes and the no part. I don't know how to turn down people for I'm afraid I might hurt them, but I always feel that I must really go through that so as to avoid hurting myself. I don't know..

I always end up asking, "Should you hurt me?" or "Should I hurt you?". t

balik blogger.

Hello! Welcome back to me. :))

I've decided that since I'm starting a new life (it's nothing major, k) and school and course and outlook (naks!), I'll be setting up a new blog.. so HI! ;D I've also decided to just keep this simple and real as much as possible. I still don't have the energy, and inspiration to add links and stuff. Well next time. ;)

costume designer, director-slash-producer, trainer
(why? don't ask. haha!)

This was taken last night after a few beers, vodka, tequila, margarita, and cherries (which I stole from everyone) at Polukai Grill, Serendra. Ang saya namin, sinimulan ng fashion show nila Carlo, Vidal, and Evan. Super dressed up sila. Haha! pa sexyhan daw, oh whateverrr. Ang sabaw pa ni Vidal, rap ng rap na bihira na nga mgryhme eh nonsense pa. Haha! Ako naman super tuwa altho nasa peligro na buhay namin kasi lasing si MB eh siya magddrive pero sinamantala ko. I saw Madel na sinasampal si MB so naki join ako. Sampal, sapak, tulak. Haha! Yun ang love. ;P

Look! Naka highheels ako, haha! Super pa girl. Tawa kami ng tawa ni Madel sa ichura namin. Oh well, minsan lang namin paganahain Estrogen namin. :) Actually there's a creepy story sa tree na yan, pag si Madel ang kinukuhaan ng pic sa tabi nyan, walang lumalabas na image as in 8 shots na ata? pero pag may kasama lumalabas naman. Ang freaky lang. :))


And since this is my first entry, babawi ako, HAHA! I have tons to share. :D

I have a new baby sister, Bien Mikhaila a.k.a Kyle :) She's super takaw, just like her ate. Hehe!

I am moving to Southville for this coming semester, shifting from Accountancy to Entrepreneurship. I'm a year late, I'm in my third year in college yet I'm a sophomore, boo.. but it's okay. I miss school, I really do. It's been such a long break for me, I'm afraid nabobo nako. Haha. Wag naman please. My sched's from Monday till Saturday, ang heavy. Ohwell, I badly need to catch up.

I am in love, but single. Hehe! Kaya I'm off the market. I think I need time to be happy and alone for now. Okay na muna ko sa maraming boy friends, they're more fun. At least, you don't set standards, no expectations, no disappointments. :)

I am looking forward to watching The House Bunny, Twilight, and above all, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button which will be released I think on December pa. It's very, very interesting. Here's the trailer:



And I'm off to bed. t