Do not do unto others what you do not want others to do unto you.

Is that ever true? How come in my case, no matter how I try to be patient and really nice to someone, I still don't get the same treatment? I do not pick up a fight, I do not suddenly get all cranky, I do not ever get so mad for something so petty. How come I still get these things from other people? I don't get mad easily and when I do get mad, it wouldn't last a day I bet you I will soon forgive and literally forget. Am I a bad person to deserve all these? Or am I just WEAK that I can't go head to head with normal people when it comes to showing negative feelings?

Hey! I do get mad, I so do. Problem is, it goes away easily with a simple sorry, a joke, or sometimes I just get tired of getting mad, it's just so heavy I couldn't take it. :/ Now I don't know if this is a bad thing or what. I just resent the fact that people might not take me seriously anymore knowing that I am this weak. i don't want to be disrespected, taken for granted, or abused because of my capital PATIENCE. I have tried for a long time now to try to release anger but I always end up feeling sorry for the object.

Ako pa nahihiyang magalit kasi baka masaktan ko sila.

Ang bait pakinggan diba? It is not good, it is not healthy I tell you. I'm afraid that someday I will get tired of being patient and I'll become the exact opposite. I don't want that! :| I have to figure this out real soon before I snap, and worse, the object is someone who is really, really important to me. I might lose that person, and he might lose me, all of me, including my respect for him. :(

It's been a year since he saved me from all my worries and misery.

I was in our Social Responsibility class a while ago when Ivan called my attention and reminded me of the date today. It is actually the 3rd of August, the date that was supposed to be Jay and I's first anniversary. I KNOW I SHOULDN'T BE BLOGGING ABOUT THIS STUFF AT ALL BECAUSE I HAVE A BOYFRIEND WHO'S BEEN VERY GOOD TO ME AND WHOM I'M TRULY, MADLY, DEEPLY, AND UNCONDITIONALLY IN LOVE WITH.

Buuuttttt...

This is MY blog, my outlet, and this is where I could, if you may, release all my emotional outbursts less the sugarcoating and pretending.

Well, I just couldn't explain how I felt when I was reminded of what the date was, of what was. (Puro was???) Nag-hang ako for a moment there and then I tried to grasp what really was I feeling. I was not happy, I was not sad. I've been thinking all day (though nobody's ever noticed) about things, how it happened, and why August 3 happened yet the anniversary did not.

Don't get me wrong, I am happy with my life now and the decisions I have made which made way for WHAT I AM AND HAVE NOW. Probably I am feeling a little guilt for what I did to him, and to the others. They've all been very very good and loyal to me and I know, I had my share of shortcomings too. Of course I couldn't and wouldn't tell you that I have been bad. I really felt love for those people that I used to exchange I love yous with it's just that, love is not enough to make relationships work. Agree? There is some sort of clash between two people of different DNAs and maturity, drive to make things work, respect, understanding, and the likes are expected from both parties.

Relationships aren't just about being happy together, feeling love, kilig... it is hard work! I have read in some magazine years back that we should choose to be with someone whom we share values and beliefs with.

I beg to disagree. We may never find someone who has the same values, likes, and beliefs like ours. We may find someone whom we share a thing or two in common with, but not totally on all aspects of life. That is why there is such thing as compromise. :) We would always meet people who are exactly and perfectly our opposite and we could also, if we try and want, get along well with them. I believe that love is not equivalent to compatibility.

Love is when you dare to be yourself, you realize that he is so unlike you, you respect him and his views, you meet halfway or sometimes you give way so as to avoid hurting the other, and then you realize that what you have been doing is so hard compared to being with someone who is almost like you, but in the end you just smile and say; "It's all worth it.".

I never intended to hurt anyone and if I did, I AM SORRY (from the bottom-rock part of my <3). Someday you'll learn that I had a point and my reasons were not excuses but reasons, really. You might even thank me for giving way to your soon-to-be great love. AYIHEEEE!!!! BOOMBOOMPOW!!! :)

Mind if I join?

My two most favorite male artists. I would want to see them both dance in the rain, topless! ;))

UN-BUSY BEE.

I did not attend classes today cause the weather sucks and so I was not feeling well when I woke up earlier this morning. My throat was sore and my head hurt like hell. I have been in bed all day, I get up when I have to eat or drink then I go back to bed. This is my most productive day to date! :)) Well it would be the suckiest too if it weren't for Gab who paid me a visit after his class. So my day ended well, and I think it got even better after we prayed the rosary because I got so hypy hypy after I made videos with my cousins Anton and Diego which, will be posted here soon. :)

K.

Sobrang laughtrip lang. Hahahaha I seriously admire her, she's one of the most talented comedians I know. :) And her blog's so funny but at the same time sensible. Malaman at palong-palo! Try... http://www.kbrosas.tk/ :D

This might sound a bit odd.

But I made a Tumblr account just so people may leave me messages, as in write me letters! Hihi. Landi ko. Do visit please! :D

http://letters4tricia.tumblr.com/

I missed you!

I finally decided to go back to blogger. I will be posting here for a while. :)
Why? Please refer to my tumblr account.
I will be posting soon, I just have to rest my burning eyes!
Sooo... bye for now! :)

s e a r c h

Have you ever tried googling yourself? Haha! I am so lost right now, I kept on searching for the right website for this effin' Market Research report until I got tired and then I looked at the monitor then I thought, "Hey, why not?". HAHA.

I got curious lang, mamaya I've a scandal na pala. Haha! Well I have some nga, pero di siya scandal-scandal ahh. Some old videos lang lalo na back in AC pa.. puro power tripping lang. Shet, I was super kengkoy pala that time. Maligayang maligaya lang. Hahaha!

I found out that my super old blog's still alive, I got to reread it and, sarap ng feeling. Para pala siyang photo album na when you see it, you actually look back and basta.. weird ng feeling! Haha. I was like, "Ahh.. ganun pala ko dati.". Then I thought, I've changed a lot! Especially my take on things. Wala lang. I say, I'm a better person now. Yikee! :))

So naadik naman ako diba, I was logged in sa Multiply then I immediately spotted the search bar then yea, you are right. I did type in my name and poof!

"You say yes, they’ll take advantage of you. You say no, they’ll get intimidated and before you know it, they’re gone.

Sometimes it’s just hard to decide whether or not you’d submit yourself to vulnerability.

When it comes to these issues, I always find myself juggling on the yes and the no part. I don’t know how to turn down people for I’m afraid I might hurt them, but I always feel that I must really go through that so as to avoid hurting myself. I don’t know..

I always end up asking, “Should you hurt me?” or “Should I hurt you?”"

- tricia may yson

thanks ty … i kinda feel the same right now… again i’m stuck with these kinds of thoughts and still.. i dont know what to do.. should i push her away or should i just continue hurting myself…. i know patience is a virtue but alongside with waiting, pain keeps on comming in the picture…

I saw this one, from some guy's blog, I actually do not know or I barely know or I just can't remember him. I was surprised to know that: first, I actually have a blog reader. second, my entry made an impact to someone and lastly, that someone actually called me TY and Tricia May Yson which I think was kind of flattering and freaky at the same time. Don'tchathinkso??

HEY YOU. You are welcome. :) 

Anyway, I should be doing my research now but I feel like going to bed na lang muna. So best of luck to me, I have to finish it before 9am. I'll prolly just wake up after a couple of hours? Hala naman. Talk about procrastinating. Haha. "better person" pala ahh? Nyahaha. XD t

 

before the year ends..

WHOAAAA. As per my tradition, it's again time for me to sit back, relax, and look back on the year that (in hours time) was. :)

* I had a very intense and serious relationship which lasted for three months only. I broke up with him for some reason, and I regretted doing so after some time. Twas too late, I felt super bad but I learned so/too much from the experience. I've learned that giving up may not always be the solution because people will not always be ready for you anymore if you decide to come back.

* I had another relationship, which was almost the best and most... basta! parang "ETO NA TALAGA!" but then I decided to leave him, for some reason, again. It was a bad move, yes.. but I guess he's forgiven me already, and I've forgiven myself too. I've learned (from my mom) that, I'm not in that 'trial and error' stage anymore where it's kind of normal to be experimenting and playing and stuff. She told me that I'm now in that stage where I need to be with someone whom I can get serious with. She's roight. :)

* I lost contol of my life, and found myself back with mom again where I found peace and happiness and direction (somehow). I tried working in a "call cen-er", and I learned the value of money. Damn! was it hard to be up till the wee hours talking to bobonics and explaining to them the hows and whys. Sobrang nakakalokaaa. It was a good experience though, having met a lot of different people. As in! from all walks of life. :) I've learned to not judge people as to where they come from and what kind of lifestyle they have. I've learned that everything happens for a reason, and I must be open to the fact that not everyone will have the same views as mine. So I must respect that. ;D

* I got sick, as in very sick. I was hospitalized for about three weeks c/o my weak immune system. I had to quit working, because my lola told me to as in I had no choice but to follow and I felt the need to quit also, so I went back to South and enrolled again for the second semester. I shifted to Entrepreneurship and transferred to Southville. And I think I'm okay now. :) What I've learned? We learn good life lessons from not-so-good experiences. oyea.

* I gained new friends! of course, cos I've a new school. And I love them, they are so fun to be with and I love spending time with them. Although most of them are boys, I stil enjoy their company although they often talk and do DOTA. amp? haha! :)) 

* Twilight was out. Yea, madaming posers naglipana. I am proud to say that I haven't even heard of it until it was in the silver screen. I was excited to watch cos I loved the trailer plus it was Paramore who covered the OST so yeah, loved it..

..until it became so overrated which was ugh, nevermind. ;P

* I met someone, who happens to be my boyfriend right now, who happens to own a very looong name, and a very huge space in my heart. ayii. ;)

* I drunk a lot of booze this year, I will try not to drink too much next year. Friends, please, cooperate! Hahaha. :))

* This has been my most emotional year, so far. I intend for it to stay that way. :D

* I have a new baby sister! whose name (Bien Mikhaila Yson) was my idea. We shall call her Kyle, for short. Ah huh, ah huh. :)

Soooooo.. there. I know I missed something, I'll go edit when it crosses my mind. ciao! t

bad vibes.

Super bv, after hearing mass (which we weren't able to start pffft) we had dinner at Racks, tapos I don't know how but nawala bigla yung promo card ko sa SB. Eh I'm 3 stickers away na lang from getting the planner! hmft! bv bv bv! Back to zero nanaman ako. Nakakainis talagaaaa.


Anyway, no classes today. yey! I need to rest eh, and do some stuff. today is pasarap day for me, I need to relax lang. I badly need it. Pero I wish I could go out and be with someone, eh di pwede cos papa will visit us today which is bihira so yun, it's something we shouldn't be misssing.

Uhm, ayun. Again, my heart's conflicted. I don't know what to do anymore, I am so scared. Nawawalan nako ng gana mag boyfriend tuloy. EWAN. So people quit asking me why I don't have one, it's not like it's a disease or something. We don't hafta rush it naman. Diba diba.


So there, Christmas is coming. I want to do something not for myself. I want to help some people. Hmm. So magtitipid na talaga ko so I could share. I don't know, if I fall short I'd rather give something to the needy kasi okay naman family ko eh, lovelove na lang. Hehe! Excited nako. :)) Ayan, good vibes na. ;D t