first day, haay.

So, after about 8 months of hiatus, I am a student again. :)







..and of all the consequences of having such long break, what I loathe the most is that my feet doesn't seem to recognize school shoes anymore. myfeethurt :(

red black blue.

"Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totoong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

-Bob Ong

I KNOWWW. ;)

Anyway, the SB 2009 Planner is out. Eto nanaman ako. Haha! 16 stickers na lang this time, unlike last year, it was 24 yata. Tss. It looks a lot simpler now, love it cos may lines and although the '08's got lines too, sirain naman. Yung sa sides.. hmf! I'll get a hold of the red one before the month ends, dapat!. :)) t

Yuck.

I woke up at around 9am, I found my bestfriend in our living room. We talked a little then we went to Starbucks to have coffee kasi naglilihi ako sa kape kanina although natatae ako. Hahaha! ;D Laughtrip lang. Mukha nanaman kami siraulo. Then went to their house to freshen up, I finally achieved my back to school look! Hehe :) I know which shade of blush and lipstick to use na. Yiii. Anyways, SM kami after, watched My Only U. Ang cornyyy. Di siya nakakatawa, nakakaiyak! Nagbrownout pa, bulok na SM. Pfft. All of that happened nang di pa ako naliligo. Kadirdir. Wala naman kasi ko balak umalis. t

shitty.

I smell something fishy with my friends, may namumuong tension.. nyahahaha! ;D

I'm just exhausted. I just had 3 hours of sleep last night, had my first meal at 5pm today, I went from Southville to Beda to get my clearance which was nakakabadtrip cos peperahan pa ko nung librarian. argh! He told me that I still have to pay 500 cos of the book that I've lost DAW. Hello!? I was cleared na nga 2nd semester last SY so how could it be that I still have accountabilities diba? Annnddd, that's the ONLY book that I've borrowed for the whol;e year and syempre, fresh pa sa utak ko yung fine na binayaran ko for that overdue book. tss. Bulok na sistema. Dami pa sinabi, magssign din naman pala. bv.

Isa pa tong nakakabadtrip, ang schedule ko. super looooong breaks. 

I have 9:30-12:30 and 9:30-2:00 breaks. Katamad yon. t

ang sarap dito.

Minsan masarap lang talaga maglakad-lakad sa bahay na naka undies lang at polo (yung parang sa movies, palaging suot ng babae after sex), habang nagkakape at nag iisip isip.

Yeeaaahhhh.

ja-ja-jaded.

After some years I got to watch Aerosmith's Jaded video again. I used to love the song but I hated the vid cos I found it a bit creepy. Hehe! Ngayon ko lang talaga siya naappreciate, prolly cos of all the nasty hiphop videos coming out, parang ows? pwede pa lang ganun?

Anyways, about T.I, hehehe! Kinikilig ako. :)) I din't like him talaga, I wasn't a fan. But after having watched The Tyra Banks Show, I was converted. :) Yes, he's got his fair share of being pasaway (not to mention good looks and a perfect set of teeth!) and all and he'll be serving a year behind bars but he's a really good man. I liked what he said about God, that "He wouldn't get you into, something you can't get through." It's just so true and I din't expect it to be mouthed by a rap star, ya know. :D

Speaking of TBS, I'm beginning to dislike it in a way. Uhh, parang the issues that they're tackling are getting more and more exaggerated. I mean, it's good that they're trying to create an image that their show has a heart but yeah, OA na at times. I'm liking Chelsea Lately more, lately. At least, she's not trying to make an effort to look smart and witty, cos she naturally is already. Her show's really entertaining especially with the guest comedians and Handler's sidekick, Chuy. :)


Well I think that's enough evidence already that I've been killing time by watching TV.
It's just so boring lately, don'tyathink? t

yung dating ako baga.

Today, I prayed. It has been my most sincere prayer ever.





I know I am so not the same person now, I have changed a lot. How could it be that I'm loving what I am currently doing yet loathing what I am becoming. It suddenly hit me that, I have turned to this version of me which I do not like since I've stopped praying. Yes, I used to pray a lot. I used to always talk to Him and He used to be the first to know if anything's been bothering me. How could I turn into such evil. I used to make wise decisions. I used to be someone with a kind heart, one with a soul. I used to like being friends with anyone, minus the judgment.

Now I'm just some girl with no substance. 19 years and look at what I've become.. rude, selfish. I've turned into someone who's not worth looking up to by my little siblings, and that scares me.. a lot.

I know I still have it in me. I've always had good intentions, but something's really pulling me back. I just don't know what it is. But I know, soon, I will be back. t

labinglima.

Alam ko, ako ang may kasalanan. Pero wag mo naman ako parusahan. Magtitino nako, swear. :'(

hard or soft?

You say yes, they'll take advantage of you. You say no, they'll get intimidated and before you know it, they're gone.

Sometimes it's just hard to decide whether or not you'd submit yourself to vulnerability.

When it comes to these issues, I always find myself juggling on the yes and the no part. I don't know how to turn down people for I'm afraid I might hurt them, but I always feel that I must really go through that so as to avoid hurting myself. I don't know..

I always end up asking, "Should you hurt me?" or "Should I hurt you?". t

balik blogger.

Hello! Welcome back to me. :))

I've decided that since I'm starting a new life (it's nothing major, k) and school and course and outlook (naks!), I'll be setting up a new blog.. so HI! ;D I've also decided to just keep this simple and real as much as possible. I still don't have the energy, and inspiration to add links and stuff. Well next time. ;)

costume designer, director-slash-producer, trainer
(why? don't ask. haha!)

This was taken last night after a few beers, vodka, tequila, margarita, and cherries (which I stole from everyone) at Polukai Grill, Serendra. Ang saya namin, sinimulan ng fashion show nila Carlo, Vidal, and Evan. Super dressed up sila. Haha! pa sexyhan daw, oh whateverrr. Ang sabaw pa ni Vidal, rap ng rap na bihira na nga mgryhme eh nonsense pa. Haha! Ako naman super tuwa altho nasa peligro na buhay namin kasi lasing si MB eh siya magddrive pero sinamantala ko. I saw Madel na sinasampal si MB so naki join ako. Sampal, sapak, tulak. Haha! Yun ang love. ;P

Look! Naka highheels ako, haha! Super pa girl. Tawa kami ng tawa ni Madel sa ichura namin. Oh well, minsan lang namin paganahain Estrogen namin. :) Actually there's a creepy story sa tree na yan, pag si Madel ang kinukuhaan ng pic sa tabi nyan, walang lumalabas na image as in 8 shots na ata? pero pag may kasama lumalabas naman. Ang freaky lang. :))


And since this is my first entry, babawi ako, HAHA! I have tons to share. :D

I have a new baby sister, Bien Mikhaila a.k.a Kyle :) She's super takaw, just like her ate. Hehe!

I am moving to Southville for this coming semester, shifting from Accountancy to Entrepreneurship. I'm a year late, I'm in my third year in college yet I'm a sophomore, boo.. but it's okay. I miss school, I really do. It's been such a long break for me, I'm afraid nabobo nako. Haha. Wag naman please. My sched's from Monday till Saturday, ang heavy. Ohwell, I badly need to catch up.

I am in love, but single. Hehe! Kaya I'm off the market. I think I need time to be happy and alone for now. Okay na muna ko sa maraming boy friends, they're more fun. At least, you don't set standards, no expectations, no disappointments. :)

I am looking forward to watching The House Bunny, Twilight, and above all, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button which will be released I think on December pa. It's very, very interesting. Here's the trailer:



And I'm off to bed. t